tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-206957342011-12-15T03:01:56.837Ztmfoxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13188060426430142482noreply@blogger.comBlogger31100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20695734.post-1137345139508074482006-01-15T17:09:00.000Z2006-01-15T17:12:19.516ZI think I've been through the worse week this year so far (and we are only into it's second week).<br /><br />Nothing has gone right at all.................. And I don't know how long things will continue to go wrong for me :(<br /><br />meh<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20695734-113734513950807448?l=tmfox.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tmfoxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13188060426430142482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20695734.post-1136836462629550862006-01-09T19:33:00.000Z2006-01-09T19:59:24.266ZWell I guess the title says it all...........<br /><br />Today I guess things hit me slap bang in the face. Mainly about my love life, now for those who don't know me very well, it's been about 6 months since I was in a relationship and to be quite honest, the relationship I had 6 months ago was awful.<br /><br />Since then I've avoided any kind of relationship and have kept things with other people strictly as friends. Up till now it had worked out kind of okay, my life has gone up and up as far as I'm concerned. But today an unavoidable conversation concerning my lovelife was brought up today and for the first time I couldn't walk out of the situation, resulting in me feeling lonely and scared about being single again for the first time in a long time.<br /><br />One of the things that also bothers me, is the constant bad things that go on at home. Most of the time I feel it has got so bad for me that I feel like I want to do something drastic (for example: Move out).<br /><br />Back to the relationship problem.....<br /><br />For the 6 month gap I mentioned. I made a few good friends that I got close to, though college or the internet. One of them even developed into a kind of 'friendship/sexual relationship' of sorts, now usually I wouldn't admit to that as I like to keep things like that a big secret. But I will say now.<br /><br />The friendship/sexual friendship started I guess more on my part. Although he made the advances, I let him; Mainly because I liked him in a way. He has a personality I rather like, he also is very intelligent and has beautiful looks, he also lives in my area so being friends with him in my view was a lot easier than a lot of my other friends I have.<br /><br />I guess I owe a lot to him since he opened a whole new world for me and that helped me to be a lot more outgoing and a lot more talkative and confident with myself.<br /><br />But he was just one example of a friend I became secretly obsessed with, there are others but I thought that one was worth mentioning because of the impact it had on my life in such a short space of time.<br /><br />Thing is though I know that I can't have all of these friends I've become obsessed with or have them at all really. But today was a real wake up call and very soon could find myself plunging in the deep end again and might find myself fighting through another relationship. I don't know if it will be good or not but I'm really scared about it, because I don't want to go through another bad relationship. Ideally I'd like to get to know someone like the guy above because I feel I could really relate to a person like that.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20695734-113683646262955086?l=tmfox.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tmfoxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13188060426430142482noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20695734.post-1136739820552709402006-01-08T17:01:00.000Z2006-01-08T17:03:40.560ZI have decided to start a proper blog that I intend to keep people up to date with my weekly or possibly daily happenings.<br /><br />For the people who have seen my previous blogs which have failed over the years, this is an attempt at the start of a new year to try and keep on top of everything (including this blog).<br /><br />Hope you enjoy reading :)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/20695734-113673982055270940?l=tmfox.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tmfoxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13188060426430142482noreply@blogger.com0